The editors present a vignette from upper house student, Gabe Garman.

I always have twigs with me because twigs are the most stable things in my life. They help me think. They help me relax.

I always start out with twenty twigs. First I fiddle with them, then I break them. Every day I break 20 twigs. But it’s fine because I always find more. Every time they are exactly the same, which is what I love about them. I never have to worry about them screwing with my head because they’re always the same and always have the same purpose.

Every night and morning I go out and break two twigs, sometimes three if I have enough. In the morning it gets me ready for the day. At night it kills the stress from the day. And even though I break twigs all day, these are the most important. These are the ones that make twig breaking not just a thing I do, but a religion, an addiction.

In the morning, I turn right, walk up the block, cross the street, turn left, walk a block, and then pull out a twig. I fiddle with it for about half the walk to the train, then break it. After I get off the train by the school I pull out a twig, fiddle with it, then break it. If I want to and have the time to I fiddle with another, but some days I can’t. My day then goes on.

At night, I turn left, walk down the block, cross the street, turn right, walk half a block, and then pull a twig out. I fiddle with it, but this time only with one hand because I am walking my dog. While I’m fiddling with the twig I get to the end of the block and then turn left. After two blocks I break it. I walk another four blocks, turn left, walk a little up the block, and then pull out a twig and fiddle with it. When I get all the way up the block, I turn left, walk a block, and then break the twig. If I have another I pull it out and fiddle with it , but a lot of days I don’t because I fiddle with them all day.

Still.

I always have twigs with me because twigs are the most stable things in my life. They help me think. They help me relax.

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